| - Home To Me - "...your subtleties...
...they strangle me...
...I can’t explain myself at all...
...and all the wants...
...and all the needs...
...all I don’t want to need at all...."
....so much going on...slowly but surley dealing with it....-->hope<--
....going to florida...i'm gunna miss all ya'll...
....don't forget about me while i'm gone!....
...for those of you who have let me talk to you lately...thank you...i owe you... ...
...someone told me i should write about myself for 30 minutes...so i did...you should do it too...heres what i wrote...i know it's long...but, read it...comment it..please?
my names kate (K.Flan..Flanner..Flanagan.."KOT"...Baby Cakes (kristin)..), i am one of the most sarcastic people i know...sometimes i think its a bad thing because people take my humor in a bad way and think im a bitch...i'm not a bitch...unless you give me reason to be...i laugh...a lot...and once i start, its hard to stop...i love making people laugh...laughing is one of the most amazing things anyone has the capability to do..when someone is caught up in a non-stop laughing fit...all they can do is smile, and they can't stop smiling...sometimes they smile so much that they can't handle it....it's almost like for that one moment...everything in their life is perfect and there are no cares in the world....SMILE--->what could be better?.sometimes laughter is the only medicine that works......i hate spiders...and thunderstorms scare me...people who are fake make me depressed...because that clearly means they aren't accepting who they are and instead, feel they have to change who they are to be accepted...when in reality, they would be accepted if they would be themselves anyways...people who are stuck up and think they are better then everyone should shut up...because those are the people that enjoy putting other people down in order to make themselves feel better...people who break promises i can somtimes handle...because i have notice that sometimes i ask people to promise things that are too much to ask for..but little promises that people break drive me up a wall...i can't stand it..the first thing i notice in a person is their eyes...eyes amuse me...i feel that eyes are the only way to tell truth away from lie....don't mind me if you see me staring directly into your eyes..i can honestly say i think eyes are the sexiest part of any guy...on the other hand..i say hi to everyone in the hallways...even if i don't know you...i like the expressions on peoples faces when i say hi....i also like the icing on cake...but i can only handle so much...i would choose slow dancing over bumping and grinding because slow dancing is more intimate...but of course, bumping and grinding can be good too...i'm opinionated...but lately i've been trying to cut back.....i've been told i'm the one everyone comes to talk to when they have a problem...feel free to talk to me...i can't promise to stop your crying...but i can promise to cry with you....you can trust me..this i promise you(good song by the way)....i love chapstick...and all the flavors there are....i like the simple things....like a teddy bear...i love rollercoasters...and the thrill in life of never knowing whats coming next...it can at times be frightening, sometimes be depressing, sometimes exciting....either way every second is different....it's amazing....i play badminton..and its alot harder than people say...i'm up for a watch if you wanna play me....i would die for all of my friends...no questions asked...i kno that that is cliche...but, i would...my friends deserve the best..and i will do anything to get them the best...i have a brother...he's an awsome person..i look up to him..i suck at pool..all of my friends play it...and whenever they play "team pool"...i'm always the last one picked because i think i make a fool of myself ...but hey its funny to watch..(plus, if my team loses...they have an accuse...ME..haha)...music lyrics are amazing to me...i relate songs to every situation...sometimes thats good..sometimes its not...i've made a lot of mistakes in my life...and i do regret a few...but at the same time...i wouldnt be where i am today if it wasnt for them....i love the show roseanne....i want to marry dan on that show...hes the ideal husband.....peoples opinions effect me...especially the opinions of my friends...for some reason...it effects me a lot...at times i trust my friends opinions over mine because i know at times i don't always think straight....i have an older sister...we aren't related by blood....but i think that was a mistake....i think we were suppose to be...but somehow a mistake was made....we are really close...and we have been through a shit load together...i don't know what i would do without her...and sometimes i wonder how i got through the years when i didnt know her.....i love sweatshirts...im addicted...they are so comfortable.....i play ping-pong..i'v been told im asian....
highschool has changed me...i'm much more outgoing...i went from the girl in the corner to the girl in the center....sometimes i wonder if that is a good thing...i have to sleep with socks on....otherwise i cant sleep...time passes too fast...sometimes it's too much to take in at one time....sometimes i just need a break from everything...and sometimes i just wish one person understood the situation....i have 4 people i trust with my life in this world...i will leave everything to them in my will (once i get one)...i get confused really easily...i try my hardest not to cry in situations that are worth crying over....sometimes i do just break down...and everyone is really surprised because i'm usually the one who is always smiling...when im confused im quiet....when im sad...i'm spacy....sometimes i'm both...i'll take the blame if i need to...im not afraid of the concequences...i drive...and i like it...i like the freedom of escaping when i want to...people say i should highlight my hair...not a lot..just a lil bit...i've never said i love you to a boyfriend or anything...i'm scared...and i dont think i have been in love yet...but i do think i have been close in the past...my iPod is my baby...i think i would die without it.....i wonder how i got through life before i had the friends i have today....i don't smoke..and never will...the best card game is go fish...it's the only one i truley know how to play....i blame myself if my team loses a game...i feel like its my fault..like i could have set better..."i was just off"...i like it when guys look into my eyes....i love cuddling.... sometimes its the simple things like sitting and holding hands that are the most enjoyable...and the most romantic...winter is my favorite season...i love the feeling of being freezing cold...then heating up by a fire...it's so simple but so enjoyable....first impressions are big for me...but it's easy for me to let go of it if you had a bad fist impression....i get nervous really easily...im not good at speaking in front of crowds...but i play sports really well under pressure...i cant imagine myself on stage doing anything...i would love to beable to...but i can't...although i have been told i should be a comedian...but, thats a story for a different day...i'm more laid back then i was a few years ago...and i think i enjoy life more...i have met some amazing people in the past 3 years...and i have made a lot of new friends including people i used to dislike who are now my best friends....it makes me wonder what i missed out on in middle school and elementry school...i'm a fan of everything from chick flicks-horror movies...but im not a huge fan of action movies...but i can deal...i like all music accept country....i sing and dance in my car like no one is watching...i get really intimdated easily...it's a little pathetic...christmas is the best holiday...a holiday of friends, family and giving....what could be better?...skiing is awsome...i love it...sometimes i feel i'm too forgiving....i forgive things i shouldn't..i have been told i'm too forgiving....but we are teenagers..and all of us make mistakes...and all of use should be given more chances...i mean..we all still have a lot to learn....and we aren't gunna learn it until we learn from it...am i right?...sometimes i feel like life isnt fair...but then i look at it..and everything seems to even out....right now im just trying to live and love life...but sometimes there is just so much crap going on at once that i just need a break from it all....but who doesnt...----TIMES UP!
---for those of you who read it---congrats---i'm proud!
hope you have a happy holiday...a merry christmas and all that jazz...
<3 Kate | 
